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[gwendolyngrey]

At the start of every school year I've always tried so hard to be fabulous... to emulate the 'really, really cool' contemporary artists (or at least the really, really cool fellow students), I try to be the best, to fit into some sort of edgy artsy mode.

This year I have decided to take a whole new approach. I'm not edgy, risky, or trendy, and I'm not going to try to be. I'm a romantic dork who loves portraiture, playing dress-up, and staying home all by myself. I'm not going to be breaking any boundries, so I should stop pretending I will. I've lost focus on who I really am as a (furture) artist, and I need to accept the truth. My only goal for this coming year is that I want to become a better painter. I'm not going to try to produce any masterpieces, or experiment with other mediums. My only plan of attack is to "get better".

I honestly have more imagination and am more creative with costume and fashion design than with fine art, and the only reason I'm doing fine art instead of the former is because I can't imagine spending my life working in the fashion industry or in theater. The inner Emily Dickenson prevails, and my future as an illustrator wins. And if I can't wow the world with my incredible concepts and new ideas, then I'd better have a solid style and GOOD technique if I want any measure of success.

So yeah.

I'm going to spend this year becoming a better painter. And that's IT.

Comments

[eldawen345.livejournal.com]

Whooo, I know how that goes! Most of the art I produced last year, while pretty cool, isn't exactly "me."

Its good that you've made a goal for yourself, rather than trying to be everything at once. And you know, sometimes by focusing on technique and laying off the pressure to be incredibly creatively unique, you end up developing your artistic style and creative niche much more organically than you would be if you were focusing on that so intently.

[oldfashioned42.livejournal.com]

Good for you! I used to do the same thing when I was in public school. I would try so hard to project this cool image at the beginning of the year. Then about 1/4 of the way through the year I would revert back to being myself :)