I am desolate

[gwendolyngrey]

It figures.

NOTHING this summer is working out...it's been nothing but a slow, sludgy wearysome drawn out series of dull muggy days with only one weekend in four months to break the monotony. But when I'd stop to brood I'd think, "hey, it's not all bad, at least I'm finally taking dance lessons"

Guess what.

Even that is now snatched away from me.

My friend I was taking bellydancing with called me this afternoon telling me her parents don't like the idea of her taking the classes, and she's quitting. She was my ride. Now my mom won't take me.

I'm stuck at home with a horrid lump in my throat as I realise that the two best things of the summer, Bristol and bellydancing, have been snatched away leaving me with nothing to fill my time with but staining the deck in the intolerable heat.

I know none of this is really my friends' fault, but I can't help feeling horribly let down by everyone. In the grand sceme of things it's small, but I've been in tears now three times in the past three days. I'm truely miserable right now.

The screen has gone all blurry.

I hate crying.

Comments

[ktlovely.livejournal.com]

Poor baby. *huggles* That sucks, and I know it doesn't help for me to say so, I hope you feel better soon and that something fabulous happens like you win the lottery or something.

[idlewild-grey.livejournal.com]

It does help. It helps tremendously. Maybe I should start plotting something again...even if it falls through like evrything else.

[k-lantis.livejournal.com]

Come on, Gwen. I know anything words on a computer screen can express could not possibly soothe the pain you may be feeling right now, but remain assured that there are many people who think you are valuable and precious. Just hang in there, OK? Take it from a guy who hasn't really done anything in the last 4 months. Get those hopes up, ya hear?

[idlewild-grey.livejournal.com]

Thanks...and I suppose you're probably worse of than I am right now. At least I only have a month left and then I'll be back at school. And who knows, maybe we'll both find work! *gasp*