Back in my skin

I feel properly like myself today. After about a month working on the outfit for Bristol, I finally did something else. I spent my evening after coming home from work painting. My new easel is now baptized by paint and I have a melting flower to use in Joseph's book cover. I still need to paint a lute and the main image before photoshopping them together, but I can't describe how wonderful it felt to be painting again. I feel as if I'm completely at home in myself when I paint in a way that sewing doesn't and probably never will. It seems that the more I think about it, the clearer it becomes that I am an artist first, and a costumer second. There are so many things I want to do...each day I find something wonderful I want to copy or learn or simply am inspired by...I love to think what I do might be an inspiration to someone in the future. I'll never change the world, but through art I can make a world of my own. How sappy....but it's true in a way. 

It's funny how my music for painting and sewing is different. I can't paint to sewing music, and I can't sew to painting music. Sewing music is Classical era, Garden State soundtrack, and mixes I've made. Painting music is Mediaeval Baebes, Dresden Dolls, Postal Service, and Vivaldi. All my other CDs can get mixed around and swapped back and forth, but those are always fixed.

I don't think I'll go to the costume contest semi-final...I can't really afford the gas to get there, and I want to stay home and paint and make my doll. I'll be going to Bristol again in August anyway, and I know I'll win other contests in the future...this isn't really a big deal in the grand sceme of things. Besides, two weeks isn't much notice when you work ever weekend and have to drive over four hours to get there. It's all for the best.